Rahul n me are best frnds or in fact we r just like brothers. One day he called up n found bit nervous and depressed. I never have seen him like this. After some couple of minutes of interaction he opened up.

This is what Rahul has to say.

Rahul: It was same another?day as usual and I was listening to the shits, fucking idiotic stuff as my?love one was on cell.

I really don't understand having sex mate is gud for me or be alone is best for me?

We are in really deep relationship from last couple of years. But being in some body's bed doing all that to make her happy or giving a proof of u r love is that all about. Life u meet many u love many and u still u keep on searching for better n better. It is a never ending process.

I hate those saying that what I was looking for it’s all I got in my partner....U can fool all but not ur self.

To be very frank these are really crap and all are doing adjustment or hiding their expectations or?try to pretend them self being happy.

Rahul was really disturbed and I can c all the frustration on this face.

Rahul: It happened many of times with me after the play I felt so depressed and guilty and then I start questioning myself what the fuck!Why m doing this and what m getting out of these? Just a physical satisfaction that’s all. Having fun with a sexy ...hot....g/f is not a big deal nor how u do it how long u do it how deep u attached? U may be real KS Guru in doing that and but important things is that what u get out of this? Is that all u wanted from your partner? Is that ur life moves around sex n sex? Is that u love u r girl only for sex? Is she with u for fuck? Is she happy in u r company? Is she really the person you wanted? Is she loves u only for sex visa vice?

If all these questions bother u a lot and finding the answers for this u r loosing piece of mind then yes u r on negative side of it. If u feel u r?happy and then u may be fooling ur self.

Morale of the story is u will be never happy for longer time what ever be the lovable, cute, partner you have. We all get bored and fed up of the things very fast and this may be the main problem with all of us. Moreover some have many options for these that different issue it self.

As you start knowing more about u r partner urs affinity or willingness for next meetings may go down .Initially when u r new u find it is amazing, awesome but ?just like foam on soda bottle moves in the reciprocating manner against the time love tends to loose the charm.

No one on this tiny planet is happy ... the happiness is not having fun or being rich or famous but definitely happiness is associated to your mental peace and satisfaction.

It is just like a balance sheet in accounts that on one side u have love, sex and happiness, wealth on the other side responsibility, restriction, honesty, loss of freedom, worries, fights etc.

If the credit side is heavier then yes u r the luckiest person for some time. I repeat for SOME TIME. The things may changed drastically any time.

Rahul was screaming and shouting I never seen him in such a volcanic erupted mood. I was just nodding my head, helping him to vomit?the Lava out of his heart.

This little one way conversation is touchy and gave birth to many unanswered questions in my mind.

Who is happy here? A person like Rahul, having really cute hot sexy gud natured lady.

Some people rather mostly all never get satisfied with what they got or where they are. Fields are lush green on the other side of the fence.

M I happy being alone? Not having girl with me like my frnd Answer is No. I want but is that I have to pay such huge penalty in terms of loosing my peace of mind, restrictions or m i going to loose my freedom.If this is what m going to loose then I have to give a second thought to it.

Money, fame makes you happy? or u r lovely cute partner? or all these in one? then why not Rahul yaar? He has all in one package. Till yesterday I was jealous of him but today things are different.

Then who is happy ?????? Me...Rahul...certainly not. One has all and me lack in that.

I keep this question for u guys there. R u happy with u r partner? What is your way of being happy? and is that u r looking for?if answer is yes then u have reached to the self actualization part of the life according to some theory I came across in my MBA program. But if it is lasting for shorter time then ur too far form it.

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